The tenderness and love of my children never ceases to amaze me....

Aydan just sat starring out the window yesterday afternoon. Over and over again he would go stare out the window looking for something. I never stopped to ask what he was doing - the house protecting Mommy inside me just kept reminding him to be careful with the blinds.
Again today he kept looking out the window. Finally he went grabbed his coat and told me we needed to go outside. I asked him why (I was sitting in the floor and he was standing in front of me) and he proceeded to put his hands on my cheeks and say "We need to go find your rainbow. It's raining and I can't find your rainbow for you. We need to go look!" Aydan has for 2 days been searching for Mommy's rainbow. He wants me to see my rainbow! My 2 year old , 2 YEAR OLD has such a desire to make others happy. He has such a tender heart at such tiny age. We've one time searched for a rainbow together - the weekend after we lost Eyvan. It's been 7 weeks since then, but the first thing Aydan thought when he saw that it was raining was that we needed to find my rainbow. Sadly even though we looked we of course could not see a rainbow, it's just too cloudy outside right now. Though I now can't wait until the next time we can look for a rainbow together.
Aydan doesn't understand who Eyvan is or why Eyvan is special to us, but he does understand that Mommy likes to see rainbows because of this little Eyvan person we keep speaking of. Someday as Aydan grows he'll begin to understand everything and why rainbows are special to me...until then we'll just keep looking for them - just because we can!

Aydan is one wonderful, special & loving little dude that I'm proud to call mine! :)